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Dec 18, 2003
You give your love and friendship unconditionaly. You enjoy long, thoughtful conversations rich in philosophy and spirituality. You are very loyal and intuitive.
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it's our christmas party!!! everyone's in a cheerful mood. i even helped the bunny untangle her beady curtain. hahaha. spirit of christmas in my veins? i hope so. dylan will be sleeping over again tonight. tomorrow at 5am we'll be hearing misa de gallo. then before work, we'll be spending my 2k worth of gift check!!! yipee! Posted at 03:20 am by stonyblue
Dec 8, 2003
it's the company's 18th anniversary today and tonight there will be a big party!!! i heard john lloyd cruz will be coming along with bea alonzo, diana zubiri, the sex bomb dancers (eck!), and some other girls that are for the boys. hay! i wonder if john lloyd would still remember me and the cat because we interviewed him a few months ago and had the article published. anyway, dylan and the other guy will be coming tonight so good luck. its not that there is something fishy going on between me and the bee, it's just that dylan is making a lot of comments lately about him and they're not good. i bet when he sees the bee tonight, he'll be holding on to my hand til we get home. hehe.
by the way, i met 1980 already. brought the kitty to the office the other night. turned out he knew my officemate pala. so the other kitty went to her. i still don't know how to conduct oneself during first meetings. i'm not the type who would go meet people in the net and later on meet them personally. i don't know, i'm afraid i guess. i see the computer as a sort of mask, or at least my defense against i don't know what. maybe deep inside i think it's better to be anonymous to some people you're not meant to meet. or i guess it's my "disorder." my friends know very well that i'm "takot sa tao." as in! sometimes i'd rather walk the long route than risk bumping with an editor. grabe. i'm the most takot sa tao person in the world. and if i wanna be a journalist, i should stop being too shy to face people. maybe i should enroll in cora dela rosa, don't you think so? pathetic.
i remember the very first textmate i had, a former suitor of a friend. she set us up and his first text was a major turn off. glaring wrong grammar, i almost choked in laughter. instead of brightening my depressed days, i only became more depressed because of his terrible english. but the guy turned out to be really cute. looked like harry potter at 23 years old. man, he was gorgeous.
but things didn't go well between us. sayang cute pa naman nya. pero pwede titigan ko nalang sya wag nalang kami magusap. kasi panira e. hehe.
Posted at 11:31 pm by stonyblue
Dec 4, 2003
When friendship turns sour...
I know I had been rambling about how I miss my barkada and all. Yesterday, one of them called. The siga one. It was a surprise. We didn't get to talk that much anymore after graduation. Last night I knew she wanted to know something. She was asking me about my supposed boyfriend.
"So ano na? Sino na boyfriend mo?"
"Wala."
"Ha? E di ba meron? Diba si Kuya Dylan?"
"Huh? at san mo naman napulot ang balitang yan?"
"Sinabe ni Bianca. Nagkita kami minsan. Pero matagal na yon."
"Oh."
What the hell was that about Bianca? I thought I was the one who was going to tell them about Dylan and me? I know they have the right to know about what's going on with my life, but heck, I told you not to tell them! It's my business. My life. My guy now. There isn't anything to tell anyway!
And we stopped being friends.
That must be why you can refrain from protecting your friend. Because I'm out of the list. I guess we're even now. I stepped on territory that I shouldn't have stepped on. And now you told them something that you promised you wouldn't tell. Everybody must know now huh? So there's nothing really to tell you guys anymore. And there's nothing really to confirm. So get the hell out of my business coz I know you don't give a damn too.
Because of all this I became the subject of a chismis--in my own circle.
But why am I wondering if all this shit is worth it?
Posted at 05:13 am by stonyblue
Nov 29, 2003
Went on my first outreach program today. It was an early christmas party for streetkids from buendia, guadalupe and CCP. Four kids caught my attention.
First was emil. On the first game, i already noticed that he was sort of a leader. He's not barumbado like some kids, but he's got the right stuff to be a good leader. I don't know how i figured that out, i just know that if given the chance, he'd make something of himself. I couldn't help but admire him. And i couldn't believe when he approached me to have his name written on his gift. Yeah, in my mind he was already some kind of star.
Second kid was Elvira. She was my ward. She told me she had 9 siblings, and she was the 5th kid. She's only 11. Thank God she's in school. She wanted to be a teacher someday. And her favorite subject is Math. How about that?
Third kid was Antonio. The kid has ADHD (syndrome?). He's hyper, papansin, pacute (and honestly shows signs of either being a pervert or being corrupt or both). I don't know. We had a grand time laughing at him, but I was seriously bothered by his behavior.
Fourth kid was Rose. When we got to the office parking lot, she boldly asked me, "Ate, anong pangalan mo?" So I replied. Not knowing what to do, I asked her for her name too, but she wouldn't tell me so I just smiled. We didn't get to interact again after that. I think I got scared.
It was fun. The kids danced to Ocho-ocho even without the background music. And the rest sang. Armin sang several songs too--in a capella. Imagine Bonga Ka Day without the minus one? haha.
Manong Sorbetero was there to give out free dirty ice cream. Mr. Magtataho and Manang Fishball were also paid to provide the famous streetfood to the streetkids. It was hilarious to see my boss trying some ocho-ocho steps to a small audience (us), with the company's president just a few meters away from him (yes, she saw him do it).
Nice start for a long day. Later, I'll be seen in Sanctum again getting drowned in Cynthia Alexander's music. Plus Dylan will be sleeping over again. Yipee!!! Posted at 03:27 am by stonyblue
Nov 13, 2003
naked_river is a very pretty girl. no, she's not the gorgeous, agawin-ko-attention-nyo-lahat type, but she has this quiet and unassuming beauty that would make one want to keep on looking at her. had the pleasure of meeting her--at last--last night. she's blueberrywinter's bestfriend of forever. but we really didn't get to talk that much. i can tell though that she's a very nice person. or else i won't be writing about her in my journal--which is a very weird thing indeed. what can i say, blueberry has good taste in friends. (kaya nga friends kami e. hehe). so blueberry, i'm asking your permission to add her to my friend list. i'll ask her permission too.
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met up with a friend last night. one that i missed so much. she's doing great and i think she deserves it. but i realized that things have really changed. i thought seeing her would take me back to how we were, but i was wrong. seeing her forced me to face my reality. this is now, and no matter how lonely and depressed i am with my present situation (that is, relationships with people), i have to deal with it.
but meeting with her was the best thing that happened this week. I was able to unload my complaints about my job, some officemates, and the system. She’ll be going to Thailand next week, on a company-paid leisure trip. Great. It will be a million years before that happens with our company.
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we went home at around 12. while waiting for our ride, this friend of mine popped two questions at dylan. His last answer made me feel like I got pushed against a wall.
I’m a fool. I’m a crazy fool.
Posted at 12:12 am by stonyblue
Nov 6, 2003
By the power of Grace skull, i have the power!!!! yiha!
She-ra. You are the princess of power! You are
strong in mind and heart. You are a leader.
Though you have had a disillusioned past, you
have made way for a clear future. Your
experience and nature make you a strong person
and a force to be reckoned with if anything
happens.
Which She-ra Heroine are you?
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Nov 2, 2003
got the biggest surprise today. i found my superduper mega crush's friendster. rather, he found me (we used to refer to him as band-aid and cosmo. it was our code. of course he didn't know). forgive me for sounding like a squealing foolish schoolgirl, but i was so kilig. as in. until i saw his status and his ex's testimonial.
"In a Relationship"
*sniff* he didn't even tell me. something as important as getting the girl he liked to say yes to him has happened and he didn't tell me. he could've dropped me a line or texted me (he's in LA). sheesh. he'll be coming for a visit in december. but what for?? can i still steal his heart by then? what if the girl comes with him?! Catherine. i hate her already. catherines have been stealing men from me. grr... i remember this long-haired guy who had a long time gf named catherine. well, she didn't steal him from me. hehe. i was actually the one trying to steal him. hihi. (hey, they broke up the time i entered the picture. technically, they weren't together then). and now this girl.
great. my biggest, longest crush has got himself a 2nd girlfriend after five or six years and it isn't me. dylan thought it would be me. he said once when he found out that crushie will be coming in december: "You'll drop me in December."
nope. i will be dropped in december. and i don't know if you'll catch me or you would keep on dragging me til i get fed up and ask you to let go. Posted at 01:42 am by stonyblue
Oct 28, 2003
i really, truly, desperately miss my barkada. as in.
i miss not having to censor what i say. and hearing what they say uncensored too. i miss being able to say what's on my mind, without having to worry if i'm being offensive or not. i miss talking about other people and not feel guilty about it, because i know what i say would only be among the group. i miss our endless talks, the constant laughter, the i miss you's, the i love you's, the tampuhans and the laughter after. i miss our tambays, our yosi breaks, our once-in-a-while gimiks. i miss crying to them and being consoled after with jokes. i miss singing with them, and arguing with them. i miss having my blush done, and watching the others having theirs done. i miss talking about who's gonna marry first, and what would happen to whom after 5 years.
i miss them. i so freaking miss them.
what happened to us?
Posted at 05:25 am by stonyblue
Oct 26, 2003
You have a mysterious kiss. Your partner never
knows what you're going to come up with next;
this creates great excitement and arousal never
knowing what to expect. And it's sure to end
in a kiss as great as your mystery.
What kind of kiss are you?
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last night's session with cynthia was great.... but short. she only played one set then it was bye bye. too bad. that must be why sessions at sanctum start late.
jay came with us last night. dylan kept talking to him, and i got annoyed.
"gusto mo kayo nalang magtabi?"
they sat together the whole show. fine. i drank my beer straight from the bottle, (that was a first) and finished it. then i went out with andrea for a puff and i didn't care if dylan disapproved. then we went back inside and i sat with andrea and just got lost to cynthia's music.
totally.
dylan was watching from behind. he was amused. darn it. told him since he wanted to sit with jay, i concentrated on cynthia then--and the wonderful music.
being childish again, i know. oh well, not having his hand in mine allowed me to thump on the armchair and make my palms red.
afterwards we went to District in malate and pigged out. food's really good there. it's not a place for the usual gimikeros because they don't play loud music. it's basically just a place where you can go to if you wanna have good food, or if you wanna drink and just hang out with your buddies.
i knew andrea, dylan and i will be left to go home. the bunnies and the cat went ahead because they were already sleepy. i was sleepy too, but i didn't complain. oh well. maybe i asked for too much.
dylan was offered to stay in the apartment to spend the night, or at least wait a few hours before going home. it was already 4 in the morning. but he went home instead.
and i woke up this morning with a heavy head. been calling dylan several times but he won't answer his phone. fine. mom asked me to go home tonight. i guess i'de be skipping grammar session tomorrow because it's at 9 in the morning and i live really far. was hoping dylan would fetch me tonight.
we'll be having a halloween/house warming party on the 30th. i'm not too excited about it anymore. i hope we'll be able to pull it off. and i hope dylan and i would finally get those curtain rods i've been nagging him about.
Posted at 02:09 am by stonyblue
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